Contradicting

I don't want to do things that I don't wish to do..

but

I really am hoping for something to happen...

but

If that something happen, I have no choice but to do the things that I don't wish to do....

but

everyone will have to go through this session in their life...

so,

I have decided to see what the future says...

If I really have to do it, then I will....

For now, I really am hoping for that something to happen.... Hope it will....

Risk VS Worthinesssss

xxx is wondering if she is aware of the risk she is taking............. well..... she is... yet she insist.... is it worth it? Don't know... =p. let JC does His part... not a thing happen without a reason, isn't it? =p

draft that I almost post on FB.... haha.... I guess abit too private...... so, I posted here... just to express my feelings.... =p