Contradicting

I don't want to do things that I don't wish to do..

but

I really am hoping for something to happen...

but

If that something happen, I have no choice but to do the things that I don't wish to do....

but

everyone will have to go through this session in their life...

so,

I have decided to see what the future says...

If I really have to do it, then I will....

For now, I really am hoping for that something to happen.... Hope it will....