silence aint helping

hufttt... again... again... and again... those questions and the answers are just a serious distraction to me... i still can't pretend to not to think about it... and being silent aint help at all ='(

the deadline has been set...

just like assignment, it has a submission date.. same thing with goals and targets, they do have deadlines.... so, i have set my deadline for this hard-to-predict-thing... we'll see how it's gonna be at last... which is next year April... i hope i'll be enjoying and having fun through out this few months period....

stay focus!

well well well... i gotta stop envying everyone and start accepting whatever i have now... maybe it is true, the best way of thinking is not to think of anything... i'll just focus on my target to get fit and have a sexy abs... XD

also, start planning on next trip.... awww... cant wait for the next trips, journeys and adventures.... >.<

ohhh... not forgetting, i also wish to have my own business... im still working on it...

ahhh.... i oso wish to spend more time to improve my photogrphy skills... =p

yeahh.... i got loads of things to focus on, so lets just not think about that matter that never failed to ruin my mood...

in to a deeper thoughts

there are lot of things that i want to write here... and lots more in my mind that i cant put them in words...

there are few things that have been re-appeared in my mind...

first, those sayings of an aunt that i met accidentally in a place where they rent dresses and evening gowns.. she tried to 'read' me.. and she said about something that disappointed me... things that i wish it was said the other way round... and it was sad to know that i cant do much about it...

secondly, the ages story about my palm hand's lines... which had ruined my day for few days back then...

thirdly, the fact that friends' and families' 'speculation' has never been discussed until now...

and now (which i think wont be the last one), another aunt of mine brought up this topic a lil bit deeper... with her humorous yet explicitly meaningful stories and questions, i'm still left hanging... tho at least i knew the 'aim' of this togetherness... but still... expectation has an expiry.. just like what my aunt said about one of her friends' case... that ended with nothing....

conclusion... i'm still in the middle of nowhere... trying not to think about it and just let it flow... but still, i have set the 'expiry'.. no matter how much i wish for it, if the thoughts aren't there, it is useless....

a quote that really hits me was written nicely by a guy, he is a photographer of a well-known name, axioo is....

'....maturity doesn't come with age, rather it comes with the acceptance of responsibility'