silence aint helping

hufttt... again... again... and again... those questions and the answers are just a serious distraction to me... i still can't pretend to not to think about it... and being silent aint help at all ='(

the deadline has been set...

just like assignment, it has a submission date.. same thing with goals and targets, they do have deadlines.... so, i have set my deadline for this hard-to-predict-thing... we'll see how it's gonna be at last... which is next year April... i hope i'll be enjoying and having fun through out this few months period....

stay focus!

well well well... i gotta stop envying everyone and start accepting whatever i have now... maybe it is true, the best way of thinking is not to think of anything... i'll just focus on my target to get fit and have a sexy abs... XD

also, start planning on next trip.... awww... cant wait for the next trips, journeys and adventures.... >.<

ohhh... not forgetting, i also wish to have my own business... im still working on it...

ahhh.... i oso wish to spend more time to improve my photogrphy skills... =p

yeahh.... i got loads of things to focus on, so lets just not think about that matter that never failed to ruin my mood...

in to a deeper thoughts

there are lot of things that i want to write here... and lots more in my mind that i cant put them in words...

there are few things that have been re-appeared in my mind...

first, those sayings of an aunt that i met accidentally in a place where they rent dresses and evening gowns.. she tried to 'read' me.. and she said about something that disappointed me... things that i wish it was said the other way round... and it was sad to know that i cant do much about it...

secondly, the ages story about my palm hand's lines... which had ruined my day for few days back then...

thirdly, the fact that friends' and families' 'speculation' has never been discussed until now...

and now (which i think wont be the last one), another aunt of mine brought up this topic a lil bit deeper... with her humorous yet explicitly meaningful stories and questions, i'm still left hanging... tho at least i knew the 'aim' of this togetherness... but still... expectation has an expiry.. just like what my aunt said about one of her friends' case... that ended with nothing....

conclusion... i'm still in the middle of nowhere... trying not to think about it and just let it flow... but still, i have set the 'expiry'.. no matter how much i wish for it, if the thoughts aren't there, it is useless....

a quote that really hits me was written nicely by a guy, he is a photographer of a well-known name, axioo is....

'....maturity doesn't come with age, rather it comes with the acceptance of responsibility'

your words are your prayers...

i was saying few times that i wanted to wait for the time comes, but now... i am wishing for the time to come now... now i feel a lil bit regret for saying those words... i wonder when will the time come... .. .. . . .

anyway, we just had our 1st movie date... yeahhh... after 1 year 1 month and 4 days... =.=" and it was Sammy 2... cute tho... =)

emooooo

emooooo to the maxxxxx.....it is a real trouble to argue with a girl who are having her period and starving waiting for the guy that has had his lunch by himself.... and it is a real iritation to deal with a guy who can't do much but just leaving a short sorry message.... I would be dreaming if he come to see me now...

we supposed to enjoy our time together, watching movie and cycling around... thanks to him, all failed...

The Netherlands

Yeahh..... One of my dreams has finally came true on Mach 2011!

That dream was to backpack to EUROPE!!

It was a 17 days trip which has covered:

#The Netherlands#Germany#Switzerland#Italy#Vatican#Monaco#France#

Lets start with The Netherlands.... =p

Amsterdam is the first touch down! The four of us, call it W, M, F and P (initials) flew all the way from Jakarta (CGK) to Dubai (DXN), Dubai (DXN) to Amsterdam (AMS) on March 10th 2011, 00.25 a.m by UAE. We arrived at Schipol International Airport on March 10th, 14.00 p.m.

First day, March 10th

Looked around at Amsterdam City and we found this place called SEED BANK.

Marijuana Shop

Amsterdam is very famous with 3 things that are Legal here, but illegal out-there. The first was the Marijuana (above). Second is the Sex Life; marriage of same gender, legal prostitution (below).

red-light district

Second day, March 11th

We decided to go to Volendam with the local tour... Why? Because it is way cheaper and you have access to the Cheese Factory that you cannot access if you go by yourself.

our tour ticket

the scene on the way to Volendam

The third famous thing of The Netherlands is that The Windmills! =D

the windmills, Volendam

sight-seeing around

Visiting Anne Frank Huis right after we came back from Volendam. It was a very quick visit. We finished the whole house of Anne Frank in less than 30mins.. LOL

Anne Frank huis

Me, from the old times at Volendam, The Netherlands. =)

That's all for The Netherlands. I know that this is a very short review and not many photos are posted here.... Well.. It is because I have too many photos to posted! LOL... That's why I narrowed it down to fews and short... =p

So..... I am still looking forward to be in The Netherlands again one day, to explore different city... and Keukenhof!! I have not been there... T.T. I will, one day! =D