Moody

Today I flew back to Samarinda.. I was so emo today.. My mood is swinging like "ayunan" (a swing).. ‎​◦нå◦нä◦нã◦нä◦нâ◦нå◦нä◦нã◦нä◦нâ◦°..

Angry coz hv to wait for so long at airport.. Then suddenly happy coz my friend contact me..

Well.. It is not about who is my friend.... The main thing is that I am just too moody.. Coz of my period.. (‾ε‾")o˚

Btw, my mom told me that Iam getting fatter.. Hixx... T__T Keel meee....

I'm waiting for oct to come.. Hehe..

A Blog as A Diary

Uhmmmm.... well.. I think I shall write a diary for each day... Something is not right with my brain and my feeling.... You know what.. It is not even a month, but I have forgotten what happened on the 18th of this month.... huff.... On that day I wrote a post, but I did not finish it (a draft)... There is only a single sentence in the draft, "Today is AWESOME"...

Just now, before I wrote this post, I look at that particular draft, but I cannot remember what was the awesome things happened.... The only thing I remember from the day (18th) is that my friend's wedding party which turned out to be NOT fun.... And because of that wedding party I absent from Fina's birthday dinner.... That's all I remember.... I remember that from morning till office hour ends, my feeling was in great mood, but I just cant remember what has happened.... huff.... So regret I did not complete my draft on the spot....

Thus, from now on, I decided to write a summary on each day on this blog (but doesn't meant I will post everything I wrote).... I will just keep it as a draft if it is too personal.. =)

So, I will treat my blog as my personal diary.... =)

John Photography School

After so long never open my blog, I have tons of stuff to write.... But I can't throw everything in one post right?? coz it will be a big mess.. hahaha....

Ok... So....

On the 2oth, I flew to Surabaya to go see doctor.... Then... I brought my SLR camera along since I have planned in my mind to go for photography courses... Well... I did.... I just completed the 3-days photography course... XD

I started my class on the 22th and ended on the 24th which was yesterday! =)

I took the class at John Photography School... He is a Commercial Photographer, but I think his name is not really big in photography world... But.... Well.... I took his classes... =.="

Ok... Fine..... Initially I wanted to take Darwis Triadi Class, but the weekend (2-day) class is not available this month... So, I went to goolge and start to find another school... then I found John Photography School...

Reason I took his class:

* I have brought my camera along

* Don't want to waste time in Surabaya by doing nothing

* When I found this John's website, I was so surprise coz a friend of mine is actually an alumni..

* His class is the shortest one among the other available classes

So... That is it... hahaha...

John"s class was not bad... It was quite good though.... =p I learned quite number of new stuffs... hehehe... Still not maximal... hahaha....

**** will be posting the practice photos as soon as I got my laptop with me ****

Deep Blue Sea

Maybe listening to "wish upon a star" - Barbie was not a good thing at this moment.... =p

Well...

To be frank, I am happy for a friend of mine who just coupled up with her old friend... Seeing how happy they are, I am happy.... =)

Yet...

Things started to change when........ erm.... When.... Don't know..... hahaha...

So... Yap! My feeling was suddenly went blue, deep blue... Like deep blue sea.. Where you might not able to see and feel.... Yap.... That is what exactly I feel now... =)

I have been thinking so many times to isolate myself in a place where no one knows me... No one knows my families.. No one knows my friends..... A pure new place to stay... But where??? I am not going to stay there for forever.. I just want to test myself, my families, my friends and others..... Well... I know it is a selfish thing to do... but.. I don't know... I just feel like trying.. =)

Well Well Well.... Another thing that came up in my mind is...

I remember a friend of mine told me something about a love fate (according to Chinese Custom)........... Lets start from the conversation between a friend of mine and I....

Y: Why a girl that is not considered as pretty or smart or sexy (hot) or cute has a boyfriend, whereas us do not have a boyfriend yet??

P: Haha.... Those things are relatif... Depending on one's taste or preference... Some might think that girl is not pretty, but some might think she is pretty... Why you suddenly think about this stuff?

Y: ermmm.. I think this is a fate.... Chinese believe that every girl has "xxx" (which I can't recall back what is that)... When a girl has lots of "xxx" then lots of guys will go after her regardless her smartness or outer look... vice versa

P: Really?? It is a superstition, isn't it?? but... maybe...

After a long tought..... I came out with an conclusion..... Actually another friend of mine who has enlighten me... (thanks, Ah Gong... =p)... so... The conclusion is that............. ermmmm...... she has a skill to xxxxx whereas us (Y and P) are lack of that skill...... I don't know if it is right to call it skill.. hahaha..... Maybe it is a talent, a gift.... =)

Anyway... I am grateful for who am I.... =D

Anoher Lappie R.I.P... =.="

I don't know why, I got 2 lappies died in my hand....

First one is ASUS W5F which I have been using for almost 5 years.... This is my dearest lappie ever!! It is a real savior for me during my college and uni life!! First, the dvd drives died, then now the HD is also died.... T___T

Second one is SONY VAIO, don't know what series, which I use for half a year only!! I don't know what is the problem with this lappie.... BUT I can't operate Photoshop Lightroom, also the Wifi and Bluetooth cannot on.... My bro tries to re-format, but it does not work..... 

OMG!! Just what is on erath going on with those lappie..... Did I treated them badly?? I don't think so!!!

FINE!! Buy me another lappie and see if the new one will die in my hand.... If it does, then I will just get myself a desktop!!!! T____________________T

Apologize

Ok.... Fine.... I am here to apologize for my earlier post about my bro's "close" friend....

Well... It was a bias... but not 100% bias.... part of it are real!!

But still... I have to apologize for whatever I have written in the earlier post....

Sorry...

I wanted to delete that part few days ago.. but my lappie is just SUPER awesome... It cannot turn on the wifi.. dunno what the hell is wrong with my lappie..... arrghh.....

September 1st

OMG OMG OMG..... First day of September!!!

Guess what......?? I have been "blaming" a person throughout my way to office this morning...... Can he act more MAN??? OMG OMG OMG!!! arrgghhh.......

Actually the whole thing is not mainly his fault...... Part of it is because of my pride!! hahahahaha...... and now I am regret..... hahahaha.... stupid!!! stupiddd stupidddd..... T___T

I was hoping while "blaming" him... hahahaha...... Well.... we will see how real is my wish.. The time limit is just few days away, September 5th.... T___T

Hope my wish come true!!!

*hoping hoping hoping* >.<  

Is it worth my pride?? Oh shit!!! idamnsuperconfuse!! Y.Y I do not know if I should feel excited or confuse... hahaha.....

HELPPPPPPP..........