I have been logged in to this blog few times simce few days ago and not only that I have also hitted "new post" button few times but at the end none of the written post posted in fact I deleted those "ready-to-post" post.... =.="

So, here am I... Trying to write a super-not-important-post just to make this blog "alive"....

Writing this post while yawning countless time in my office table.... Forcing my brain to "wake-up" and let my fingers do the typing..

After so long never blog, somehow I felt so lost... Don't know what to write, because so many things have happened....... good ones... bad ones.....

I even did not write the "happy moments" that I should have documented... =.="

Too lazy to open my lappie once I got off from office... and I just not sure how long that happy will last.. coz apparently somehow somewhat at times it turned to be doubts and worries... blahh....

Okkkk..... Lets just end here... coz I really am super sleepy and enegry-less....

AirAsia Reward!!!

Phiee was surprised that she just got a call from AirAsia.. That lady on phone said: "We would like to reward you as a loyal cust of AirAsia... bla bla bla...". "OMG.. Did I get a free air ticket?" that was exactly her thought at that moment.. She didn't even bother what was that bla bla bla... till the word "special offer for IDR. 80.000 per month.... " wth... That AirAsia in fact offered me a kind of insurance, called Accident Care... =.=".

Then through the whole phone call, she was "oohh.... iyaa." "oooo....." "hmm... hmm.. hm.............". The Lady: "are you interested of joining us?". Me: "Nope, thanks... I am busy now... byebye.... ".

Why can't they reward me with a free air ticket tho it is just a flight to Malaysia? It would be so much appreciated!! or maybe just a 80%off for any flight at any date!!!

I NEED A FREE AIR TICKET!!!! GIMMIE FREE AIR TICKET!! I AM CARVING FOR TRAVELING!! T_T

Blood Donation

Yay!! Today I went for a Blood Donation!! and I donated 350ml A-type Blood!! hahay!!

Well.. I went to the Blood Donation booth ALONE!! LOL

I was damn nervous but still force myself to donate! haha...

As a result, I fainted!! LOL

Fainted for few mins... 1-2 mins... haha...

WHY??

Well.. Actually this was not the 1st time I donated blood.. This was the second one... The first one was long long long time ago, about 4++ years ago, when I am still studying in Malaysia.

Anyway.... My first blood donation ended successfully.... I meant I did not faint or feeling dizzy at all... In fact I felt so fresh!!

But the second one.......... I fainted.... Coz I lied to the lady that I had my breakfast.... Besides, it was about lunch hour, but I also have not taken my lunch...... and and I went there all the way ALONE right after I came out from Church..... I was so nervous.... haha..

Oh yaaa....... not forgetting that I had my period right AFTER the blood donation... So, I conclude that today, I was too weak to go for blood donation... LOL....

I seriously have no idea why suddenly I got period!?! Well... Actually I knew that I am going to have period, but I never expect it would be today!! I thought it would be few more days ahead... haiyooo... But things has happened... Luckily I did not faint for a long time.. haha...

Maybe the reason I gained my conscious very fast is because I worry they will call my parents!! My parents surely will scold me like mad!! hahaha..... They never never ever agree on donating blood!! LOL.....

and alsoooo..... Few mins after I gained my conscious, a cousin of mine updated his status on BBM, saying that he is in MALL LEMBUSWANA where the booth is in and I was laying on bed!!

I suddenly stand up from bed!! Even the nurse shocked..... They asked me to lay down abit longer or sit down and drink more water... But I insisted to drive back ALONE!! LOL.... I suddenly felt damn fresh!! I gained back all my energy... LOL...

Oh yaaa.... I also would like to thank a friend of mine, R (initial) who was donating his blood in Sby too... haha... He keep me accompanied (via bbm) through out the donating session.... LOL... My turn came 1st before his.... His turn was after I gained my conscious.. LOL...

NOTE: we did not purposely set a date or time to go for donation together.. It was just a coincidence... =D

Not forgetting too, My Nyak.... Thanks for the support and the prayer.... and also her bf, W who convinced me to go for the donation...

Thanks Thanks Thanks..... Many Many Thanks for the supports!! XD

PampangLovers Video

A friend of mine whose birthday is actually today made a video for us!! Such a nice video he made. We (as his friends) should be the one who made a video for him.. But we were too late... We also thought of making a video for him, but we are still collecting photos of him!! LOL....

So, here you go, PampangLovers Video!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ch2Y6kdFMqE

and and and..... After seeing this video..... Something came up in my mind....... =D

"Sometimes we got to work extra or take the initiative to keep the bond tied still... Time might un-tied the bond if no-one cares and everyone hands up...."

the outsider... the stranger... the left one...

aaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

am I??

am I the outsider??

am I the stranger??

am I the one who left them??

or should

I put am I the one left out??

am I?? am I?? am I??

am I?? after so many years? am I??

I WONDER!!

and I just can't feel the feeling of closeness any longer..

it is like tasteless..... plain..... flat.....

it is like the only reason I keep this 'relation' is because of those years we have spent together.. it is like duty to keep this 'relation'... something that I must keep tho it is tasteless... feeling-less....

and the ironic thing is that..... my goal is just so contradicting....... I shall pity myself now..... pathetic..... ironic.....

but still........

am I??

am I??

coz I feel somehow I am the one that caused this happened due to some 'idealism'....... which now come to think of it, it is kinda right... kinda wrong....

anyway... things has happened.... no matter how many times I think about this..... no matter how much time I spend to settle this.... I just can't do much..... I can't help it... but to go on..... coz too much parties involved in this so called 'relation'...

to settle this...... lets just blame me..... coz I wasn't able to keep this feeling.....

Today......

today my hair was like a broom, flat - oily face like a fying pan, sleepy eyes with dark circle and eye bags, and and I got so many things going on around....

but the funniest thing was that I keep on thinking of something,,,, from the moment I woke up till this moment when i am writing this post... something that I really am don't know why it is keep on appearing..... but I think I know what it is... hahaha.... contradicting myself... LOL...

then, when I got home late from work, my house was having electicity cut! wow.. I was "shit, why no electic?"..

but then, after a short "kai kai", I came up with an idea! haha... and since than my mood is lifted up and and also because of those people who really bings my mood back... thanks alot! *hugs*

12:21 on April 21 2011.. XD

Welll.... My watch show 12:21 on 21 April 2011!!

Yay!! I finally turned to be 22 years old!! ahaha..... Feeling so old eventhough it is just adding a small number, ONE.... huhuhu....

anyway...

I am not really sad about turning to 22!! In fact I am glad that I have finally one more step further to adultness..

Welll...... Many people said adulthood is not fun, but what can you do about age?? Can you just return to baby or teens again? NO, you can't, right? So, why don't you just enjoy whatever it is.... just walk, just go with the flow.. =)

hahay! I am talking as if i am a pro... I am not!! hahaha.... I just just wanna be thankful to God for giving me chance to be alive, here, now....

Thankful for the family that He has chosen for me
Thankful for friends that He has given to me
Thankful for whatever good or bad experiences in my past that has shaped me to be who I am now..... =D

Thankful

Thankful

Thankful

Thankful for whatever that He has planned for me!

You only have one chance to be alive for who you are... There will be no second chance... So, come on.... move on..... leave your past behind... let your past be your history... let your past teach you on how precious life is! let your past give color to your life!! XD

SO... yaaa....... Thats allll from me....... I have not really writing a post since few months agooo.. hahaha..... and I found that my english is getting sucks! LOL.... so sad.. huhuh....

Anywayssss...... for whoever in this world who share the same birthday with me,,,,,,

A VERY HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

May this year will be a better year than the previous ones! and lets continue to 'write' great stories in our life!! XD

*hugs* *kisses* XOXO